I love Rhiannon.

Salvatore the Magnificent says:
he is.
but somehow I'm attracted to him D8
Seriousslyyy hes so meannnn
XD
m3ch4n!p4nD4 2.0 says:
You're so straight.
Salvatore the Magnificent says:
Woww, reallyyyy? XD
XDD; I'm so straight 'cause I like the faggg~
m3ch4n!p4nD4 2.0 says:
I know its such a fucking paradox of gay.
Salvatore the Magnificent says:
XDDD
m3ch4n!p4nD4 2.0 says:
lesbian loves gay man.


Salvatore the Magnificent says:
m3ch4n!p4nD4 2.0 says:
HE'S NASTY
Salvatore the Magnificent says:
HOW IS HE BETTER THAN ME
EVEN BY A LITTLE BIT?!
m3ch4n!p4nD4 2.0 says:
LIKE WTF IS HE WEARING
Salvatore the Magnificent says:
XDDDDDD
I LOVE YOU RHIANNON
m3ch4n!p4nD4 2.0 says:
Jordon, you're even too good for kelsey and alex combined.



She makes me feel so good. <3
;_;

Recent thoughts

Ooh...A post!
How rare!

Whatever.

Just some notes I thought I'd like to post...

1. I'm getting sick of elections. You guys get where I stand. I hate Obama, I think he going to screw over middle and high-class Americans like my family and others I know, I think he's snobby and racist, and hypocritical. I sick of attempting to defend myself against you people who "just don't like McCain" or think McCain is "too old", and don't have anything to really defend YOURSELVES against my thoughts with anything but emotional responses rather than factual ones. Do any of you even listen to, follow, or FACT CHECK ANYTHING THESE PEOPLE SAY? Good freaking LORD.

2. I'm really confused about love. Haha, surprise. I just want someone to cuddle with. Is that really too much to ask for? I'm a simple person. I have simple needs. That need is cuddling. Give me some.

3. I still love you, by the way. I hope you aren't noticing.

4. I wish I could just sit in my room all day with someone, in my underwear, being comfortable, eating and painting.

5. I love winter/fall so much. I so missed the cold weather. I hate heat. Cold is so much more pleasant.

6. Walking in the rain while listening to Earth Intruders by Bjork is probably one of the best things I've ever done. It was the COOLEST feeling, EVER. Try it.

7. I wish some people would just be less difficult and a little more nice. I'm okay with how it's going though. I think I've got my emotions under control, but I still feel lonely.

8. School's going good, just in case any of you were noticing. But I am having money problems. I just can't seem to get my hands on any. I need a job...

9. I'm comfortable in my views.

10. I love all kinds of art. I've found I'm a lot more eclectic in almost everything than I thought. In my clothing, I'll wear anything from metro to lolita, as long as it looks good. I'll listen to anything from rap to symphonic metal, as long as it sounds good. I'll look at anything from graffiti to Aya Takano to Andy Warhol to anime to Van Gogh, as long as it looks good. I'll eat anything from clovers on the side of the street to thai to my mother's cooking, as long as it tastes good... You get it. Eclectic is the only way to go when it comes to anything. Makes life a lot better, taking the best of all worlds...

On elections, 1

Quick note...
I've been researching and looking through videos and sound bits and speeches dealing with the elections coming up.

Today I'm looking up "Anti-McCain", and "Anti-Obama" videos on youtube.

What I noticed was that... The majority of Anti-McCain videos are from Obama's and other celebrities campaign for his election (political ads, things from the news and people commenting on "TELL ME THE DIFFRENCE BETWEEN BUSH AND MCCAIN!")...

Whereas Anti-Obama's videos are filled with blunders, lies he's made, anti-american, and racist jokes and slurrs he's made. Again, not one McCain video has any of that. The only anti-McCain video I've seen that has actually impacted me at all was the one about his birth control thoughts, but, birth control compared to lies and slander? ho hum.

ANTI MCCAIN:



Two ads in one AND an Obama supporter, I guess this might count as three, but its the only somewhat convincing video I could find...
Wow...so...Obama supporters can only work off of fear?
Does that woman think that McCain would be in office for 17 years, when her baby will actually be able to be drafted? Does she think that there will be no other wars or drafts? Ho hum... They just tell us what people want to hear and feed off of our 'primal fear'.

That's the only big thing I could find...gimme some more if you find any good convincing stuff.

ANTI-OBAMA


Overview ... The ending of this video is unimportant, but the beginning really hits on how often he is caught in a mess of stuttering, lying and not knowing what he's saying...


Racist


Does he have enough experience?



My Muslim...no, my Christian faith. D:


I dunno. You're told not to trust everything you see on the internet, but you shouldn't be believing everything you see on TV or hear on the radio or read in magazines or newspapers, either, because if you're not careful you won't get the whole story, and that's what a lot of people are doing... So... I'm taking it in stride, trying to find stuff on both sides.

Check in again for more.

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I also found an interesting comment on a forum today.

Ladydye said,

"They would rather you vote on emotion. It's much easier for any politician to sell you his/her bag of tricks if you are only responding to emotion. And once the carnival is over and you realize you have been sold a bag of empty promises - who is gonna be there then to pick up the pieces? Politicians are all the same. On both sides. And we, the silly Americans, have allowed them to be this way. We have no accountability for these people once they are in office. No emphasis on actual solutions. Hell, we can't even get out congress to show up and vote half of the time.

i refuse to say who i am voting for, because it really is my own decision. I don't feel the need to jump on bandwagons or hurl insults. but i do feel that the current TMZ approach to picking our future leaders is going to get us just what we ask for - a whole lot of talk with no substance behind it.

enuff said. Back to the real issues - which one DOES Paris Hilton really like the most?"

Goodbye, world.

Okay, I'd like to start off by saying that I'm horribly afraid of doomsday and death. It's one of my few true fears. I've tried to get over it but it just is something I can't. So...I'd like to talk about the LHC.

The LHC is a MASSIVE 17 mile long atom smasher created by European scientists, from what I understand. People have been afraid that it will create black holes, strangelets, and other crazy earth-destroying icky things. Now...I usually wouldn't be afraid of it. While I like to look into philosophical doomsdays, like, people predicting doomsday...Like Y2K, or 2012, and like to give theories of my own. But this is different. This right here is particularly scary, mostly because this is MAN MADE. This is CONTROLLED by man. It's not just a theory or a philosophy, it's a scientific fact that this has the potential to create a black hole: maybe the chance of 1 in 50 million, but the potential...is...FRIGHTENING. It's also quite scary because CERN even SAYS it has the potential to create one, but they don't consider it a risk?

They're risking the world to figure out how the world came into being?
That's...brilliant.

I don't really want to go super in depth... But that's about it. It's scary, and we may all die, or we may find something out that could help mankind with telecommunications, medicine and energy, in a sense, all the important things in our life. Hopefully, it's the latter...So good luck.

I know I'm scared out of my mind. I feel stupid saying that, but I am.
Where we live, here on the west coast of the United States, it is apparently going off around noon our time, according to my friend Brenny...but has already gone off according to my friend Faith. So... I don't know. We'll know by this time tomorrow, at least... If we live, I'll write again tomorrow...but for now...

Goodbye, world, sleep as easy as you can
and have fun being scared for your lives!
I love you, I love you I love you I love you!

And I thought I was doing a good job.

This is spontaneous and I don't want to post it, but, whatever. suck it up. I feel really not so good right now. I hate being a teenager and I hate being in highschool. grah. I don't want to deal with this stuff anymore...But friend and loneliness problems happen to everybody...
I try really hard to, I don't know, impress? Is impress the right word? I dunno. I try hard to impress my friends I guess. I do end up getting into what they like, and I start taking in the bits I really love about them and adapting it to myself... It's weird, hard to explain, but what I mean is that I put a lot of effort into getting along with, finding stuff to talk about with and all that kinda shit with them... And I constantly miss them. I always want to spend time with them. But I guess that's not true the other way around for a few. Like Alex. I try to invest a lot of time in him. I try to think of things to do, or talk about, and I do whatever he asks me to. I put up with him being mean to me, and whatever else he can throw at me. Not that he's awful. I just feel kinda attention-whorish because of how he reacts to me. I mean hell, I even answered texts way early in the morning asking for me to look up stuff about Pokemon EVs, yeah? But I always feel so lame when I talk to him, like he doesn't really care. Which is probably true. I don't know...it's nice to get a "thankyou" or know that you're appreciated.
Then even close people like Atti and Rhiannon and Kelsey. While I'm not having any sort of like, fight or major problem with any of them, I feel sooooo... not there. Not anywhere near them. Rhiannon goes to a different school so she's okay, its not her fault...I feel like, in 2nd place for Kelsey but that's how it always is... And then I feel extremely awkward with Atti. I thought calling him would make me feel better about all this 'cause he usually always does...'cause he's just...great... but it made me feel really weird, and when I got on his blog I just got all bummed and my heart sank down to where the glowing fishes live 'cause of his hating people post. Ugh... Then ...I just don't feel good...I feel so lonely. So so so lonely, stressed, inadequate, tired... Maybe I need to just. Become single. And stop caring about whether I talk to people or not... That's how I always used to be. So maybe I need to just...calm down...and go into a complete hault and revert back to my roooots... done, done, done with it all. I need sleep. horribly.


down with your face, boyy.


Muse told me:

People change I guess D: we shouldnt stress out so much about it. I mean, I think that you and I are the type of people who like everything thing to be A-OK all the time with our friends, and when it isnt it really gets to us. You invest alot of time and emotions into your friends, and thats not a bad thing at all. In fact, I'd say thats you being the best friend you can possibly be. But when its not returned, or when people are going through shit and theres nothing you can do about it, it hits hard.


And she really did hit home with it. I am obsessive about my friends. Obsessive, possessive... overly loving. So...sigh. I guess I really do need to just...back off and let them come to me if they truly love me... fuck.
I love you Muse.
you're my best friend.

Okay, so.

From now on I have two blogs. This one's for just talk, either about school or...whatever. Personal stuff, including my making dolls and occasionally, drawings. The other (pikapika!love!) is for videos, other peoples art, games, and other random cool things I find on the internet. Kay? Kay.

:] Enjoy.

Spooks

How scary.

Spooky.

Frightening.

Well, not really...

But her name IS spooks.

She's a black cat,

has no tail.

She sneaks around and tries really hard to be scary,

as her name and appearance would suggest,

but she really likes playing...especially in water.

She was one I started when I visited Coco recently.

She was made out of the sleeve of a sweater.

One of these

Just another one of these, yes.




Kandi.
Hot pink lovely bear ferret type dear.
I love her, but she loves candy more.

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That's all, really.
I'm so boring lately. XD

Pingouin birthdays

I made a penguin for my friend, Rachel's, birthday.
I named him Popsicle but she can name him whatever she wants. :3
He, of course, likes freezers and popsicles.
Unlike the other children he has no hair,
and likes to wear a beak, so he looks more like a penguin.
He doesn't like human noses. Mhm.


I tried yet another new bit while making him.
Kindof.
I made the body all one piece so I didn't have to sew a neck, which was nice, and made the body shape cute.
BUT
The fabric I used began to tear, and I didn't think ahead for the Victorian heart button, or the belly.
Plus I don't much like flat-ness for children when it comes to the coat, at least for him. It makes it look funny.
Aw well, yet another learning experience.

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Click for bigger size...
Pomegranate birds.
Closely related to cherry pit birds.
They make their nests out of the hardened outer shell of pomegranates once they've eaten all the seeds. Also their main food source.

Their beaks are like the seeds.
Their bodies are coloured like the outside of the pomegranate.
The underside of their wings are like the inside. :3

Drawn for Muse 'cause that's her favourite fruit. Also as like, a belated birthday card because my attempts to make her a ploo doll have failed thusfar.
Kinda quick (about an hour and a half) but I really like how the pomegranate looks.

I was just gonna have them on the bench or wherever they're sitting and a yellow background but I added a lot of green, like the moss and such, so the red would stand out.
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I've been busy, and yet, lazy lately.
I have lots to do and many people to see!
So I apologize for the lack of posts. :c
But things will pick up soooooon, I promise~

Too cute, too cute, TOO CUTE

I just can't handle the cuteness of these videos.





Going through my Mana phase again.
Oh, oh I love him so much <333

My handsome boy

I had another baby yesterday.
He's a fox bat.
His name is Aidan.

He's a sweet little gentleman.
He likes high places and dreaming
He also loves his little sister, Claire.

What Inbreeding Can Accomplish.

I love pigeons!
I want to have domestic (fancy) pigeons someday.

THIS...
Is the single cutest bird ever.
The one I want most.
The Lucerne Gold Collar.
A shortish beak that leads into a smiling face, cute puffy cheeks, big shining eyes, fluffy feet, AND A COWLICK!?
It's SO CUTE~!!
Good LORDIE!
I'd name her Tea. ^-^

A frillback pigeon.
Doesn't that harm their ability to fly?
I mean, it seems weird to have curly feathers like that... But it's still kinda cute.
I guess I'd name him Teacupoodle.

This is a Reversewing Pouter.
I don't like it that much 'cause I don't like the ones with poofy chests.
BUT I thought ones like these were interesting, with the floofy feet,
because it reminds me of the microraptor:
the only animal to have four wings.
The model of the microraptor looked a lot like this 'cause of the feet.
Dunno, I thought it was cooooool.
I'd probably name it Microraptor just because of it.

An Oriental Roller.
Aren't the colours really pretty?
So warm.
I'd probably name it...
Autumn. D:

Yet another interesting one.
An Old Dutch Capuchine.
It looks fancy, like its wearing a black coat with fur around the edges or something...
Looks evil.
Has something to hide.
Reminds me of Cruella De Vil. :D

The Aachen Lacquer Shield Owl.
I like this one just 'cause it's simple and elegant.
Her name would be Pidgey.

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Oh also.
Here's a really cute thing someone wrote underneath a photo of Lily Fawn I found on deviant Art:

"Through a strange forest in a residential area appeared Lily Fawn’s house, my associate and I curved our way through a small path. Next to an abandoned shack her delightful home was that from a demented fairytale. Pleasant on the eyes, yet inside possibly lurked a gingerbread witch. The door opened and a white rabbit jumped out of a shopping cart to greet us with its red eyes. After it had inspected us and no doubt gathered DNA evidence for later studies we plundered into the main house. We stepped into the 50’s with all its patterned comforts and ceramic deer. A wood stove, cake holders with goodies in them, pictures of woodland creatures, strange old instruments, and warm lighting surrounded us as Miss Fawn hopped around in a little brown dress and bloomers. She is from a scary old fairytale book, one day I think she just had enough and escaped into the real world to inflict her child-like voice and lullabys on to the unsuspecting planet. Adorable yet deadly, I could tell this from her antlers and how she spoke of her deer father whom was painted on to the wall. She showed me pictures of her goats and chickens then tried to feed us dead baby stew which she claimed was delicious. Eventually we clammered around and took photographic evidence of this strange girl posing beneath red curtained stages and lounging on her pattered red bed from another time. All her soap was natural and she had made it herself. Later that evening we met up with her partner in crime as mine had departed and he was known as Hank Pine. A forest creature like herself he wore an all white seemingly medical outfit, a white cowboy hat, goggles and dirty panty house over the rest of his face. He also seemed to glow green where his heart could be, whenever he needed light. Lily was now all white, in a movie star dress from the 1920’s and bore a saw on her back. At one point she stopped driving her little minivan (to no doubt go unnoticed around the humans), and ran towards a garbage dumpster screaming that if she wished hard enough there might be a magical sachel for her saw in it. Later we arrived at a dark park with hundreds of glowing lanterns and faceless people. We gloomed around with a manservant who showed us the way with his hunchbacked trottle and lantern. Lily found herself a drunk mermaid who smelled like vomit playing the accordion and singing for everyone. They made some spooky music together, Lily on the saw and we ran away to watch Hank murder a giant spider with his invisible gun. Many festive whales were also murdered throughout the night and gun fights were had on garbage cans. Somehow we came to this weird party in an art gallery with burly drag queens and artsy people with fans all dancing to music that seemed to accost my ears. The lights in this place made everyone look like they had fishnets on their faces, rainbow fishnets of death mind you. I met a girl who plays cello who was some form of feline creature with whiskey, she was lovely. Outside they all started to make music and have a sing along, then moved it upstairs when it was after hours. They played a luscious private show for about 10 of us who were still there. We went back to Lily’s home and she told me to come into the cellar with her. I obliged as this woodland creature had not done me wrong yet, and just as I walked into this little room the door slammed shut! She turned out all the lights in a split second and it was pitch black! A screech came from her, “I’ve got you now!” followed by a maniacal laugh. I woke up blurry. I focused on the wall. An evil deer. I looked around more, more evil deer. The scent in the air, chemical yet experimental. Perhaps strong wood glue. The blankets had some weird residue on them that rubbed off on me and made me feel like rubber. On the floor were many juice bottles half filled with some form of juice. I am not to say if the liquid in them was the original juice or perhaps urine and cream soda. I am not to say. Nor do I urge any of you to find out, it is dangerous territory in the dungeon of Lily Fawn. I escaped however, in a fury, and I am thankful I am alive to tell the tale, but who knows what she did to me when I was unconscious."

Adventure

I went crabbing.

Well...

I sat in a boat and watched people crab.
It was scary.
I don't like being on a boat,
much less a small one,
and I HATE WAKES.
I WAS SO FREAKED OUT.
...
It was fun, however.
I love dog fish.



Their skin feels like sand paper.

Three of my best friends have birthdays in September! Odd. Atti, Rhiannon and Kelsey.
Luckily I know what to do for Atti's birthday, but I'm not sure what I want to do for my lovely girls.

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Things I need to make/do/buy:

• A lacy Lolita nurse bag like Kelsey's
• The TOP SECRET PROJECT for Atti
• Rhiannon's birthday present
• Kelsey's birthday present
• Erika's orange squid
• Stuff for felting
• More fluff fabric
• A umicorn child
• A deer
• A bat
• Old Pokemon Card packs
• Lolita dresses

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Oh what a busy day I have ahead of me.
And I'm anticipating Coco's next e-mail.

Hmm, places I find romantic? Seattle, Snohomish River?

When I grow up I want to adopt a cute Chinese girl.

I can't stop listening to Katamari Damacy songss!

I'm all over the place!
I'm going to go accomplish one of my "Things I need to make", now.
But before I leave I have this to say:



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EDIT~


I made this with that gap in time.
Here we are!




It's for Maegyn for her biiirthday!
I think its cute.
I'll make the next one with a sewing machine x_x




I also made a deer.
I've been wanting to make one for a while, but...
Ehhh.
I wanna make a fleece hat of a deer next. <3>

Speaking of deer:
I named her Thistle.
She's a deer.
Every other day or so...
I try to visit her.
I'm trying to befriend her.
Every day I get closer!



Just a second ago I saw her walking around outside
so I ran outside and we stared at each other for a couple minutes.
Then I went back inside and got my deer watching clothes on.
And I went back outside only to find her by the porch eating grass.
So I sat down and watched.
She didn't flinch or anything.
I think she's getting more comfortable with me.

Life, it's a beautiful thing

I found this box at Good Will today, I had to get it.



I thought it was darling.
I can't see why anyone would want to get rid of it.



And this little squid is waiting for his new friend to arrive tomorrow.
He's a little patchy, like everything I make,
but I think he's darling.
And ended up looking like Chaos from the Sonic the Hedgehog series, but whatever~~

I'm so excited.

Oh what's the sound of the world out there?
Those crunching noises pervading the air?
It's man devouring man my dear,
then who are we to deny it in here?

Laalala.

I wish to share more of my room.



I also found this today at Good Will.
PIKACHU BUG CAR PLUSH!!
It's so cute!



My deer vertebrae in a rice-bowl filled with tacs, fake rings and safety pins. Yeah. Whoa.
Venonat card right there, too, see?



Malice and Charlotte.
Charlotte, I've known longer. She knew me back when I liked Good Charlotte.
Malice has only known me since the Malice Mizer era.
It's all good...they're my favourite lovers.



On the top is my Soft life business card type deal Coco gave to me when she met me.
It went through the wash so its kinda rounded and weird, but it survived! Yay! So I tac'd it to my wall.
My felted fetus is tac'd right underneath.
...Yeah.
I did that just so I could say I have my fetus tac'd to the wall, got a problem?
It was also because nobody wanted it.
This is sad, next subject.



I like putting things my friends made for me on my wall.
This one's my favourite.



This sits next to me as I play on my computer.
I found that plastic deer outside the school one day with all my friends.
Yes, I kept it, are you crazy, people?!
Rhiannon gave me the "ugly" baby she made. I put it in the deer's neck hole.
It's kindof like a centaur.
So then my katamari cousin decided to ride on it.

Then behind that is the gorgeous coca cola bottle my mom gave me.
I love it...

Beautiful Katamari babies

I lazily made a Katamari Damacy cousin.
She's my representation in the big group of cousin-ness. :]



My friend Samantha made one, too.
Hers was way lovelier 'cause the design was cuter and the face turned out nicer.
But oh well.
They're best friends.

Ah lazy summer days.
I like those best.

I-gave-birth.

Yes, yes I did.

Her name is Claire.
She likes flowers.
She's my child.
I love her very very much.











She also has little tiny white feet poking out from under her coat, but you can't see them in these photos.

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She took me two hours to make by hand. I didn't really know how to make her body shape at first but I got the hang of it, and I even figured out how to do the neck. She has two layers:the white layer that makes up her body and the outer layer is her coat, the bright fuzzy hot pink fluff fabric. That's why there's a button under her chin.

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MORE TO COME:

Wauuu plush plush

My favourite doll maker has to be Hatsukoi on DeviantArt. Definitely.





They're so sweet and aah, so absolutely GORGEOUS. Lovely. Amazing. And yet, a little creepy. I giggle and smile every time I stumble upon her site. She also makes dolls for UFO, you know, those well loved anime dolls. I don't like those so much, but, still, I love her so: www.hatsukoi.deviantart.com

I also really adore Coco's work.




I love them. So much. I don't know how to describe her work as anything short of amazing. She definitely inspires me to make cute things. Ah~ But of course, I have a link to her blog and main website on the sidebar of my blog. ;3 Softlife!

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I wish the Pokemon Center hadn't closed down. My favourite dolls to collect were, BY FAR, the Pokedolls. They were usually small, but very well made, adorable and super-soft. How I miss them so. I have to find whoever is distributing them now. If anyone knows, tell me!




I'm not sure if that Pikachu is of the same brand, but the weavile and the chatot are. Mweee <33>